well...*sigh* im leaving ohio in about 5 hours...and i cant even spend them with jesse since its 2 o clock in the morning(for those of u who dont know, me & Jesse got back together the day after he broke up with me, & iv'e been in ohio for the past one & a half day now)it was beyond amazing to actually BE with him again after a year & i know it sound pretty cliche but when i saw him my heart actually like...double thumped or some shit...hes really romantic, for example i started crying in the car from the mall going to his house cuz i knew that those were the last 15 minutes i'd ever be spending with him for a REALLy long time & he wiped my tears & told me to make the best of those few minutes & he tipped my chin up & kissed me...yea i know cliche but it was sweet of him so i dont give a fuck...& even though hes only like half a block away i fucking miss him...i wont be able to be with him again for another TWO (2) FUCKING YEARS!!!!...& now im stuck here thinking about all the FUCKING DEATHS THAT HAPPENED THE WEEK BEFORE LAST (RIP. Michael Jackson, Billy Maes, Sarah foset, Jamie Orr & aunt Maria) & now im thinking HOLY SHIT!, what if he dies before i see him again...then i started wishing i could kill myself right on the spot...then i felt pathetic...my god i miss him...sorry for being downer...luv u peace...